life currently

im not sure if i have anything to day. i guess thats what the web really needs more of eh? people with nothing to say, but all the means in the world to say it. i feel the strain of the cubicle lifestyle around me, pressuring me to do something, just like them, something useful. something that can be called my job. me personally, i like to read about stuff, and maby even do some learning. on my timesheet i accredit lots of my hours to ‘research’. nobody notices, nobody really cares. well, no office people. yesterday morning i got an email telling me that a day i filled out a complex work day for was actually a public holiday. i sometimes get the keeping up appearances feeling. maby im comming to the end of my office life. or maby im just needing an outlet from creative energys that i cannot use when inbetween projects. when doing things that i know other people can do better. thats one things that really gets to me actually. the mis-allocation of resources. man, if you have someone good at something, use it. i guess that is a little biased as i do some stuff that i really dont like that the guy next to me is really good at. and that sure, yer, hes really busy and stuff, but still. i can allow it to skew my opinion right? sometime i get the feeling that if i ever read what i write it goingto make no sense and be jumping all over theplace. not that it bothers me, this is a nice vent. maby i should just make it private tagged, as to stop the impeeding waste of time anyone might suffer if they ever accedently read this. ahh vlogs finished downloading. time to watch the news..