rawrr

ok just applied for a job. it really is quite scary. i suddenly feel so inadequate. guess i cant do anything about that now tho. time to wait.

note: still dislike cv’s, the archaic ‘present a person on paper’. although i cannot find a better more efficient soultion for mass application.

—EDIT—

haha that was quick:

Hello

Thank you for submitting your resume to us.

Unfortunately your application for this vacancy has been unsuccessful. In this instance other candidates’  details more closely matched our client’s requirements.

Thank you for putting yourself forward.
Juana

ahh the morning.

so this is my second day of being officially quitted. 3 weeks and 3.5 working days to go!!

i wonder what im going to do.

quitting wasnt really as scary as i thought. its kinda nice really. new year, new start to things.

‘Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing? ‘ – matt 6:25

oh and some lol for grg.

done and done

Dear Mark,

I hereby tender my resignation.

My last day will be on Feb 1st, four weeks from today.

I have appreciated the opportunities and experiences that have been provided to me during my just over 2 years of service for Datacom. If there is anything I can do to be of assistance during the transition, please let me know.

Cheers,

Adam Tombleson.

 

 

work currently

all i can think of. all that runs through my head. quit quit quit quit. as soon as i turn to this thing that i have been assigned to do. quit. there is no motivation. no desire. i dont really understand it. and have been left alone to work on it. why. it is fair i dont like it so much. that i dont want to do it so badly. does everyone just do stuff they dont like? hell no. that is not me. i refuse. the remaining issue is how to deal with this situation appropriately then. do i press through and get this last thing done then break clean? that is what im assuming is going to be my current action plan. and by assuming i mean that is what im going to do unless confronted with a radical opposing soultion.

and today

had a meeting with a guy from our software dev kinda department. might consider moving there, but its all java. not too sure if thats where i want to go. had a nice coffee and discussed things tho.

good thing i dont really have to decide anything urgently.

in fact, at the moment im having a beer and listing to the smiths.

although i have the sense that im so bored, i really have heaps i could be doing. i do think it is defiantly time for change.

list of things to remember to do:

• finish spider for pprplane
• oscommerce template work for sportsworld thing
• tf2
• finish reading ‘waking the dead’ so i can move onto the other 3 books i have half read/waiting
• elevator actionscript
• life and other awesome stuff. eg living.
• frameworks study

hrm… that should do it for now ^^ 😉

lols work

sometimes sitting at a desk is never enough. i get that feeling from sitting here at my desk.

the amount of times i open a job search site etc then close it again.

i must press on.

must stay here, work as i can between the gaps.

get the paprplane flying. ofcourse it is the best choice. it just seems distant at the moment.

the world: all mixed up

you see, i either want to work on cutting edge technology, as in ajax dev, or to learn truth. im so sick of this crap i do at work. the moving around of ones and zeros. the learning of some old software to do some boring job. oh sure it may very well need to be done, to keep the world revolving and all. yes totally. but TENNIS BALLS OH DANG its boring!!!

i wonder if everyone just did a job that they thought was awesome, if everything would get done? if there is someone for each of the jobs in the world that needs doing and its just that we’re all in the wrong order, doing someone else’s job.

…but then i remember how boring this is and doubt.

almost somewhere

sometimes i get the feeling that sitting at my desk isnt enough. that something is happening some where in the world. something that is great. this isolation of a cubicle. although i am physically separated, the boundary’s in essence are only in my mind. i guess thats just the mild depression and or anxiety from sitting here for so long today, staring out the windows to the beautiful wellington sunny day. having done next to no practicle work, while reading amasing posts (such as anything from Rory) and aspiring to maby distant great heights.

i might go make a milkshake. in fact yes. milkshakes are happy. i keep a container of milkshake making powder stuff on my desk for just this reason. so when i feel like a milkshake is required i may just make the quick walk down the corridor to the kitchen and take a bottle of milk. simple.

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sometimes i get worried about work, ever since i got back from my trip overseas i have been feeling restless. i was hoping with spending the first weeks ish back sick, that i might of died down. but generally, internally, im on fire. i always get visions of stuff from the trip, random memories. enough to make this sitting at a desk uncomfortable. so anyway i sit here, at a desk, at the top of cuba street, in the capital of new zealand, wellington. maby its my soul that is stiring. that no longer wants to be left at home. im not sure if writing helps, i guess it does a little. i dream off, and this page is left here…

User Experience

Oh Today has been fun. I shall recall my ‘user experience’, just in-case anyone else needs a little help or that on the very rare chance someone who can make a difference(if decided that one really needs to be made) ever decides to check what the end users are experiencing.

Now today I am using: Unicenter Application Performance Monitor 3.5.1 (now)patched upto 02-06-06 from Computer Associates.
Ok here goes:

I started off trolling the CA web site (Which I must admit, actually proved to be quite straight forward) looking for a reason why APM is blue screening every time I install the agent. So after finding the new patches and figuring out that I also need the new version of the patch installer and getting that all done and in place I figured I was away laughing. Well, in effect I was(I guess).

Well that was until I looked at the documentation. But lets not get into that just right now. Ok so the default path for the Transaction Server (which is a feature you can have on your agent machine that does a set of user-programmed tasks and reports to the agent and then onto your manager) is c:\caapmts. Now this is I think the fourth different path that has come from this package, but were not getting hung up on this at the moment. So, what I decided to do, and not unjustly in my own opinion, was to change the path a little, for example say, we could put it inside a structured CA folder?. This is not crasy is it? Not too much of a reach? What’s that you say? The developer’s will kill kittens if I do? Well then my friend, I guess I might just opt to make the name a little more readable, I suppose then they can just get off with a little maiming. So. As it stands, I changed the folder name during the install to C:\CA_APM_TS.

Ah yes, now that is a little better. We have a little a semi readable but yet still badly placed folder name. But alas that will do for now.

Right so there I was thinking I had made the world that little bit better, so I load the Transaction Server and what? What is this? Where are all my Transactions? To the documentation I go! (Oh what a mistake that was). Now somewhere in this vague list of hints about the product I find a little paragraph stating that all transactions need to be placed in the transactions folder. What? There is no transaction folder! So I’m a little bit unsure here since there is no folder with that name. So I’m lead to assume that they want us to create this ourselves. How nice I guess. The developers are trying to get us involved, leaving some work for us to do ourselves. Ah ha, so I make the folder…. and put my transactions inside… and yes, I guess I do feel a little more involved. How thought-full. But now what? nothing happens? Hrm… So after too long looking and experimenting and after going just a little bit crasy, I decided, hey!, ‘I’m crasy already, now i can think like whoever wrote this code’. So I create an empty folder called caapmts in the c drive root, and make a transactions folder in that with all my things, and yes, you guessed it. Everything is happy again. All is found.

So my conclusions are lead to the following: They want us to use badly named randomly placed folders. Free thought and the idea of following conventions are taboo.

Now I’m not sure if I like this philosophy and I’m not sure if this is really is the kind of image CA wants to project. What do you think about this? Is this kinda thing a really big deal? Or just a commonly overlooked by-product produced from the sheer size and geographical displacement of these larger software umm.. ‘developers’?